Bestie

We can only be bestie in our life time?
Ya u r right... I always wan more than what u give because I love u...
Until today I treat u still the same but u r different...
U met her...
U love her...
U need her...
U told me I hurt u so much but in the same way I also...
I hope u to back but y my wish won't cme true?
Is the god jealous? Or I'm not the one?
I miss u more than anyone...
I need u more than anyone...
I love u more than anyone. ...
The action I show is not what I wan. ..
I doing all these for u because I dunwan to lose u again even we r jz friend...
This is not what I wan... I wan u to be my lougong...
I dun care what other said... how bad r u not responsibility r u..
For me u r always the best man...
I know the true...
I know all the things...
what I can do to get u back?
I learn how to be a good woman...
What else I can do?
I miss u
I miss ur smile
I miss ur hug
I miss ur kiss
I miss ur smell
I miss the way u care me...
I miss the way u treat me...
I miss the way u angry me...
I miss the way u scold me....
I miss....
I miss....
I try not to think about it
I try not to care about it
I try....
But y when u reject me I still feel sad...
Y...
I try to start with other guy
But I can't do it...
All my mind is u....
U!!!
U won't know how hard m I to go my life without u...
Yes I'm showing u I have a good life
But when I down u won't know..
Because I promise u
I will accept all these facts...
I will no matter how much I miss u...

I miss u

I miss u all the time but I told myself I can't find u even I miss u so much

I have to be independent u are no longer with me is time for me to learn how to be independent 

My brain ask me to move on but my heart said hold on....

All will said I'm stupid for what I did even I know tat we got no chance to get bac together

But when I saw u happy I'm satisfied...

M I stupid for me no just the other way to show I'm still loving u... 

In mandarin said tat love someone not to hold them be ur side let them found their love... 

I still love u in my deep but I won't show it, will just keep it myself until the end...

I miss u a lot... I knew u did enjoy ur life now so I won't disturb it will jz stand by ur side. When u need me I'm always there for u... No matter how other ppl look and talk I will stil be there for u... 

I still loving u...

Miss u

I doesn't wan a man

I just wan u to text me everyday tell me what happen the day

What have u do

Happy onot

I can't hold u

But at least I know u r happy without me

The only thing make me happy now

I still love u

I still miss u

But not going to show u

I hope u r missing me there also

But i tried not to ask

I scare u keep on keep me a distance until the way I can't get to know what happen on u

I dun wan to meet u so tat I can tried to be alone

The life w/o u is like nothing

But still have to goes on

The memories

I cried in the mid night

In this memories room

U r no longer here beside me

Hug me to sleep

My tears drop automatically 

I can't control it

I knew I already lost u 

No longer here with me

I miss u

Inside this room there are a lot of memories

No one can replace it

It is belong to us

Looking to the side u ad not here 

Before I sleep I won't be c ur face and touch it again

After I wake up no one will smile at me and say morning loupo

My heart really pain

The painful I never get before

My tears is out of control

I hope u wil be here with me until the world end

But it won't be achieve 

I don't how long I have to take to pass through all these

I need you...

什么关系

在一起久了，就会变成一种关系、责任，但却少了当初的热情

现在的我们没什么话好谈

你喜欢和其他女生聊天

但和我却没话题

那到底是怎样？

Busy weekend

MO is over is time to get back to my study.

I'm so tired this few day can't even have a nice sleep... I miss my bed so so much but I miss u more... U r busy on the competition ur team tats y I help u to take care of the boys even I dunno what strategy to use in the games but I can take care them in their meal the health and their accommodation but not the game.

But I'm reali proud of my boys... From the first day until the last day they play well than previous matches in this competition. They show me a good attitude and learn from their mistake. They reali improve alot in their age categories. This is an open categories competition but u guys make into top 4 even dint get the medal but u won the whole world. U guys are strong enough to fight with the open categories men.

So remember this, u guys are strong u lose not because of ur skills but it is the technical problem and u all are just boys but opponents are adult... I love u all... Improve yourself and prove it again in the future... 

U all had made the history for the team in this year. Believe urself.. 

I set the target to be the team manager for 2015 sea game girl tem for Malaysia... Even when that time we are not in the relationship I will still try to get it... This is what I promise myself to make my profit stronger in waterpolo even I'm not from any swimming and waterpolo background.. Learn it and improve it...

For u congratz for the champion in this MO again... U going to have the busy life start from now... I dunno how long we can stay some more, but as long as I can accept it I will work for it... Sometimes I reali tired to talk with u but I'm still here to support u. Hope u understanding tat not i Dunwan talk to u but I just wan to cut down the mistake. I'm still learning...

界线

我不说话不是因为我不开心我不爽

只因为我不想再说多错多了

你每次都会说道最好都是我的错

那到底是怎样

我真的不知道了

错的到底是谁

对的又是谁

每次吵架到头来还是一样

到尾都让我觉得是我的错

真的有不一样的感觉了

你让我觉得很陌生

你已经失望了

我还能做什么

一起努力的条件是我要接受你的行为

为什么每当其他女生有感情上的问题都好像管你的事

只能为你了解女生

那我呢

我的问题呢

为什么你就没察觉

没有个女生可以接受到吧

她男友老是和其他女生信息

就算她和她们有多好

总会有个界线的

很好的一句话

男女之间是不可能有纯友谊

就算我再信任你

在未来我们不知道会有什么事发生

你知道你在那界线上玩火吗