I miss u

I miss u all the time but I told myself I can't find u even I miss u so much

I have to be independent u are no longer with me is time for me to learn how to be independent 

My brain ask me to move on but my heart said hold on....

All will said I'm stupid for what I did even I know tat we got no chance to get bac together

But when I saw u happy I'm satisfied...

M I stupid for me no just the other way to show I'm still loving u... 

In mandarin said tat love someone not to hold them be ur side let them found their love... 

I still love u in my deep but I won't show it, will just keep it myself until the end...

I miss u a lot... I knew u did enjoy ur life now so I won't disturb it will jz stand by ur side. When u need me I'm always there for u... No matter how other ppl look and talk I will stil be there for u... 

I still loving u...

Miss u

I doesn't wan a man

I just wan u to text me everyday tell me what happen the day

What have u do

Happy onot

I can't hold u

But at least I know u r happy without me

The only thing make me happy now

I still love u

I still miss u

But not going to show u

I hope u r missing me there also

But i tried not to ask

I scare u keep on keep me a distance until the way I can't get to know what happen on u

I dun wan to meet u so tat I can tried to be alone

The life w/o u is like nothing

But still have to goes on

The memories

I cried in the mid night

In this memories room

U r no longer here beside me

Hug me to sleep

My tears drop automatically 

I can't control it

I knew I already lost u 

No longer here with me

I miss u

Inside this room there are a lot of memories

No one can replace it

It is belong to us

Looking to the side u ad not here 

Before I sleep I won't be c ur face and touch it again

After I wake up no one will smile at me and say morning loupo

My heart really pain

The painful I never get before

My tears is out of control

I hope u wil be here with me until the world end

But it won't be achieve 

I don't how long I have to take to pass through all these

I need you...

什么关系

在一起久了，就会变成一种关系、责任，但却少了当初的热情

现在的我们没什么话好谈

你喜欢和其他女生聊天

但和我却没话题

那到底是怎样？

Busy weekend

MO is over is time to get back to my study.

I'm so tired this few day can't even have a nice sleep... I miss my bed so so much but I miss u more... U r busy on the competition ur team tats y I help u to take care of the boys even I dunno what strategy to use in the games but I can take care them in their meal the health and their accommodation but not the game.

But I'm reali proud of my boys... From the first day until the last day they play well than previous matches in this competition. They show me a good attitude and learn from their mistake. They reali improve alot in their age categories. This is an open categories competition but u guys make into top 4 even dint get the medal but u won the whole world. U guys are strong enough to fight with the open categories men.

So remember this, u guys are strong u lose not because of ur skills but it is the technical problem and u all are just boys but opponents are adult... I love u all... Improve yourself and prove it again in the future... 

U all had made the history for the team in this year. Believe urself.. 

I set the target to be the team manager for 2015 sea game girl tem for Malaysia... Even when that time we are not in the relationship I will still try to get it... This is what I promise myself to make my profit stronger in waterpolo even I'm not from any swimming and waterpolo background.. Learn it and improve it...

For u congratz for the champion in this MO again... U going to have the busy life start from now... I dunno how long we can stay some more, but as long as I can accept it I will work for it... Sometimes I reali tired to talk with u but I'm still here to support u. Hope u understanding tat not i Dunwan talk to u but I just wan to cut down the mistake. I'm still learning...

界线

我不说话不是因为我不开心我不爽

只因为我不想再说多错多了

你每次都会说道最好都是我的错

那到底是怎样

我真的不知道了

错的到底是谁

对的又是谁

每次吵架到头来还是一样

到尾都让我觉得是我的错

真的有不一样的感觉了

你让我觉得很陌生

你已经失望了

我还能做什么

一起努力的条件是我要接受你的行为

为什么每当其他女生有感情上的问题都好像管你的事

只能为你了解女生

那我呢

我的问题呢

为什么你就没察觉

没有个女生可以接受到吧

她男友老是和其他女生信息

就算她和她们有多好

总会有个界线的

很好的一句话

男女之间是不可能有纯友谊

就算我再信任你

在未来我们不知道会有什么事发生

你知道你在那界线上玩火吗

失去了才懂得珍惜

因了解而分开

我们适不适合

在我心里你就是那个

但是我却要接受

我不知道我到底做到没有

我真的不知道

我可以要怎样

我不敢尝试

因为我不想失去

那滋味我不想再尝试

我真的没有这勇气了

我真的不知道我接受到没有

失去你过你一次

我不想再尝试第二次

我到底做到吗

我到底做到吗

谁可以告诉我

谁明白我想在的心情

只因为自己的任性

让两个人又再受伤

我是不是很失败

为什么

就不能控制自己的情绪

为什么就这么任性

就不能盖丢你的坏习惯吗

黄晓恩

你已经迁就我很多了

我知道的

只能怪自己的坏脾气

失去了爱你的人你爱的人

就算再不舍得

又能怎样

疤痕已经在那了

去不掉的

我因该再尝试吗

我们真的可以再努力

再努力挽回我们的感情

真的可以

我是怎样了？

最近的感觉又回到分手时了

你总是找其他女生聊天 留言她们的fb

但却没想过我的感受

当我爆发时

你却说我小气

到底我因该怎样

我问你我因该怎样

你却和我说了一堆的人生道理

我挺爱要怎样回答你

我只是希望有

你一点的关心

你一点的关怀

你一点的温柔

你一点的疼爱

我感觉我们已经回不去从前了

我尝试过

但总是怀疑

我尝试信任你

但当我要成功时

你总会做些事情把我对你的信任毁灭

我接受你要的生活

我知道我自己并不会好过

但为了让你开心

我无从选择

我做这么多东西只为了你的开心

你到底明不明

我真的不知该怎样了

你总觉得我无理取闹

但你有想过我的感受吗

我也是女生

也是要人开导

也是要人哄

也是要人紧张

生活

真个人很暴燥
很辛苦
不知道为什么
不想看到你的感觉
我很累

过着这样的生活
让我觉得我的大学时间不是我想要的
大家都说大学生总是可以到处玩
但是我呢？
怀念以前的生活

就算是在芙蓉
我也可以到处走
累了可以回家可以回店找妈妈
突然很想念妈妈

Insomnia nite

Insomnia tonight
Is tat because I'm emo?
I jz read bac what i had write before
My tear drop without control
My heart feel pain

This few day
I keep thinking about our relationship
Is that any problem between us o just for me myself problem?
I feel helpless now
Keep on thinking back the year we had go through together

V broke up and get back together again
When started it is like so sweet
But after a few months
Everything like normal

Do u rmb how long v do not go for movie
Do u rmb how long v do not go for pool
Do u rmb how long v do not hang out

Everyday after class v r just stay at home
Is tat what I wan?
I'm crying not because v r always stay at home
It is juSt like I'm alone now
Like what happen when v broke up
U got ur life I do my work...
I can't feel the safe when I'm with u
I starting
not to care which girl u looking at
I starting not to care what u r doing

Is this kind of relationship I wan?
I'm confuse now
I'm so tired to think what to do for u
Im trying to plan a trip for myself..
Have a trip to relax...
Recharge myself and cme bac to the real world
Is this wat I wan?
I dun know...
I start treat u as normal
Nothing much to talk with u.
What can I do now?